Be proud to be Depressive! I am an Intellectual Depressive, and it's better than being your average dummy. You do pretty well for a while, until you're 40 and then you become an alcoholic or a suicide case.
If you are a brilliant writer or programmer, or what, find something else to do at 40, and take your Cipralex. You are still pretty smart after that, but your brain can't take the brilliant burning any more. Retire, fish, and write a blog. That's what I do. :)
Seriously, don't let pride keep you away from the doctor. Let Pride take you to the doctor! Too many people I know have spun down the dark spiral because they refused any help.